Hey there,
I would have loved to write with the writing skills of Shakespeare, to warm your heart with words so profound, piercing, and sweet that you will think about them all day long and it will keep a smile on your face, but our relationship in my imaginations is still so young I can’t find the words.
Here’s a funny story, back in secondary school, I had to travel for an exam at Minna. I forgot all my shoes at home except the flats I had on. It was a three-day exam when I realized I was so scared to tell my dad that I just stayed with the flats all through; it was funny when I had to wear the flat shoes for the tiniest of activities like going downstairs in the hotel to buy something. My brother still brings it up to this day. I cringe so badly at the memory.
In all honesty, my first thought about you started three months ago; then I wondered what would he look like? What does he smell like? What are his hobbies? What are his favourite snacks? Does he love coloured socks, ties, and accessories? Then I became frightened at the realization that I had never prayed about you or for you, and my heart sank (that will have to change), but here’s a little one for you.
I believe in praying scripture, and Ephesians 1 is one I believe all believers need:
[I always pray] that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may grant you a spirit of wisdom and of revelation [that gives you a deep and personal and intimate insight] into the true knowledge of Him [for we know the Father through the Son]. And [I pray] that the eyes of your heart [the very center and core of your being] may be enlightened [flooded with light by the Holy Spirit] so that you will know and cherish the hope [the divine guarantee, the confident expectation] to which He has called you, the riches of His glorious inheritance in the saints (God’s people), and [so that you will begin to know] what the immeasurable and unlimited and surpassing greatness of His [active, spiritual] power is in us who believe.
I wish you would pray for me the same thing.
When I think about you, the need to improve my communication, assertiveness, articulation, and transparency deepens. To be the person you not only want but need and love, I have to work on those areas. I pray I make good progress by the time we meet. I grew up in a family that fostered passive aggression, and I would in no way like to have that in our home. We should talk over any issue, work through it, and genuinely move on from it. At this point, I should attach a label to myself; there are gaps in me that I hope you feel, I don’t know them yet, but I sure want you to complete me in a way.
Envisioning the life we will build together makes my heart leap for joy; oh how I pray our family glorifies God in all areas I want God to look at us and smile and say when I created “family” that was what I had in mind, I want us to have a peaceful home with joy and laughter filling the air, a home with a conditioned atmosphere of love and peace where we live by examples to our quadruples (just so you know I have the gene for multiple births 😅 I am a twin from a twin) Isn’t it so beautiful we are in a different part of the world as strangers, but a day will come we will be so close and intimate, and memories without each other in the picture would be vague hehe.
I sit here writing and blush just at the idea that our first little encounter would be the catalyst for a lifetime of beautiful memories, shared laughter, and tears. I do not believe in the idea of soul mates, but I hope we match in spirit and soul so perfectly like two pieces of a puzzle that I begin to question my ideology of soulmates. Oh, how beautiful I know your soul would be and how grateful I would be to God that we met. I have never met you, but I know you will give me the opportunity to say, Oh, you think my husband is handsome, wait till you encounter his person and get a glimpse of how beautiful his soul is.
I would say I love you, but in our relationship that exists in my imagination, I am still in the shy phase and not so forthcoming yet (you have been in my mind for just three months). It is safe to say I am not there yet, but I know I would love you unconditionally in a way so profound it will be all new to you, and I promise to give you my best( looks like I already have a headstart on my vows lol) but for now, I’ll end with,
TOH MADALLAH !!! Till we meet.🥰🥰